Through the Fire

“I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.”  – from the Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer I have been trying to write this for over 6 weeks. About 6 weeks ago my boyfriend and I had our worst fight ever. At that time […]

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From the Muck

I hurt. I want to crawl up into the fetal position. Lick my wounds. Close the curtains. Wounded. I can’t write. I want to be poetic and philosophical. Instead I’m in pain. I drop him at the airport. I’m sad. I will miss him. I also feel relieved. How can I feel both? There I […]

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Screaming Silence

An oldie and a goodie … this post was originally published in 2015.   Last spring, I led a workshop with Alexis Ryon-Melcher at the Westerbeke Ranch. She said something mid-day that made me cry – expressing something about my work better than I could have myself. It’s the first time I’d been back since […]

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Fish Out of Water

I have a confession to make: I have a very hard time with networking meetings.  As an introvert, a highly sensitive person, and an empath I find myself completely drained after a networking meeting. Most days, I feel like I’ve traveled 28 hours on an airplane after going to one. I’m not a natural super-connector. […]

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From the Heart

STOP TALKING!!!!! (I’m speaking to my head.) It chatters on and on and on, trying to control every last detail of my life. I’m so tired. That’s making me tired. Aren’t you tired of all that planning and re-planning and trying to figure it out? Wait, I think that’s my head talking to my head. […]

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It’s My Body, My Body, My Body, MINE!

Years ago, while playing one of my favorite roles ever, one of my passionate monologues culminated in the line “Its my body, my body, my body, MINE!” Yes, it is my body … And I’ve recently had to face the fact that I’ve been treating it like shit.” Okay, maybe not “like shit” compared to […]

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Blank Page

Ahhhh….. Sitting down at the computer at 4pm on a Friday. I’ve been avoiding this blank page all day. I’ve done laundry. I’ve done yoga. I’ve showered. I’ve paid bills. I’ve met with contractors. I’ve shopped online. I’ve done everything I could to avoid sitting down here. What is it about a blank white page […]

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Finding the Courage NOT to Help

As I write this, it’s my sister’s 54th birthday. It is very likely that she will not make it to see 55. She does not have cancer. She has another disease: She’s an addict. Every time one of my other sisters calls, I’m convinced it will be THAT phone call. You know the kind. The […]

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Rejection Sucks ASS!

Last year I returned to theatre after an unintentional 5 year break. When I auditioned at the TBAs (a huge audition with 100’s of theaters present at one time) it felt like a triumphant return. I got the role that I really wanted. It was a peak experience in an amazing script with simply awesome […]

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